Um, what just happened here?

It was all going so well.  Then I got that damned text.  I swear, one day, I’m going to learn how to fight and I’m going straight to Thailand to kill Kiet or be killed in the process.  He never even knew where my sisters were.  I read through Thiang’s phone before tossing it.  It was a ploy he used to draw me out.  No matter, I would’ve gone anyway.  I would’ve gone to keep them safe.

And then HE has to get involved, be all hero and knight-in-shining armor-ish.  I didn’t ask him to.  He f’ing volunteered.  I told him not to.  I told him I didn’t need him.  I didn’t want him or anyone else fighting my battles.  But like a dumbass I didn’t protest hard enough.  I caved.  I told him everything about Kiet.  I did it for my sisters.  I thought he could help me.  What a fool I am.  He sure enough had the part of nice guy down.  He was so fun to be around and I found it so easy to tell him the hardest parts of my story.  It was all just a ruse though.  I was never anything more than an object, just like with all the others.  I don’t know why I ever thought he was in the slightest bit different.  So stupid.

Anyway, he comes and does his hero rescuing the damsel in distress shit and then he just tells me to f’ing leave.  I’m all ready to show him my gratitude however he needs and he kicks me out, like I’m a piece of trash.  Probably realized that I was more trouble than I was worth.  Probably thought he’d be saving my sorry ass all the time.  I’m such a fool.  Got in way deeper than I thought.  Now I have to cover up even more wounds and put on my badass face.  And I was so happy that they were safe.  That’s all I cared about.  Now I can barely find comfort in that.

Now what?  Now where do I go?  Stuck wandering the streets of Barcelona, looking for a meal, preferably a rich meal as I threw out over half my stuff because it smelled like him.  Overreaction?  Probably.  But necessary.  The last thing I need is to be wandering the states and get a whiff of him off a shirt, then have a mental breakdown.

One thing I know, never again will I be with a vamp.  Tried it twice and both times have led to nothing but problems.  So here’s tip #1 from Thanh’s Field Guide:

1.  Never, ever, ever try to have a casual fling with a vampire.

2.  Especially if that vampire is a dumbass Volturi.